State of the RP thing

[cosmicpretzel]

GENERAL
So I've been on break from the RP scene. If I'm honest, yes, due to a combination of a lot of things (mostly involving life things and emotional states because of life things and yada yada yada), I'd become severely burned out. Dropping everything might have been one extreme way to handle said burnout, but I'd been RPing for two years straight with no break and I guess everyone hits that point sometime. Blah, it sucked a lot of ass, but it's what I needed to do.

I think... this break has been really good for me, though. I've been writing a lot of things just for myself and kind of recharging my batteries a little bit, so to speak. I can feel my creative drive starting to come back to me, more and more each day. Words are starting to become less of a teeth-pulling exercise than they were even, like, a week ago. I know it's kind of pathetic, but when I can't form words, when my writing and creative drive in general start to suffer, it takes a real toll on me. But I'm really glad it's all coming back to me now like that Celine Dion song, because I feel more alive, and definitely much more like myself.

Oh, and now that I'm on DW because Plurk Paste is a bitch, I can link the song AHAHAHA

For right now, I'm working on building my tagging endurance back up (i.e. Caitlin, if you're going back to games, you need to write more than five tags a day), but I think yesterday, oddly, did a lot to help that. I boomeranged on a dear_mun post for hours and didn't get tired of it until I went to bed (and am still tagging on it this AM/early afternoon), so this is a really good sign! I'm looking at going back to games in September, and I think I'm on the right track now to be able to succeed in them.

So, yeah, that's the general State of the RP :)


MORE SPECIFIC STUFF
For now, I'm looking at things that are slower and easier to keep up with, and have lower AC requirements than what I've played at before. In addition, I think I'd be chill with playing out stuff that's a little less intense and more lighthearted for a while. So, in light of all this, hollyheights has caught my eye as a game I can get my feet wet in again. I'm definitely planning to app the September cycle. In addition, I'm also eyeing outer_divide, because it's small and slow and the premise looks interesting.

I am, of course, apping Katniss. Because girl is my homegirl, and I couldn't not. She's kind of stuck to my brain like a barnacle. And, in any case, in particular, it could be fun to see what she'd do being stuck in a situation with a fake "family" and being in a sort of "normal" life. idk, entertainment potential. Also looking forward to seeing how her character might develop if she doesn't have constant crazy shit thrown at her. That could be really exciting!

But, outside of that? That's where this gets interesting. So, yesterday, on a whim, I started to watch Twilight movies just to see if I could get through them, and then made a Bella Swan account and started dicking around with it just for kicks. And I found that I... really like playing her. It's so much fucking fun. I think maybe because there's no pressure because there aren't any standards when you play from Twilight because the canon's so shitty? idk, whatever the case is, I'm having a ball. SHE'S SO GODDAMN CRAYCRAY that I'm constantly like BELLA WHAT ARE YOU DOING. And the prospect of developing her character from someone who's so dependent on wrapping up her identity in someone else's to someone who can be on her own and claim a little agency is kind of cool and exciting.

So I... kind of want to app her too? lmao Depending on how long I can stomach Stephanie Meyer's writing, because I do feel like I need to get through the actual books to do this and be fair. I'm thinking maybe hollyheights for her too, though. Part of me also really wants to app her this cycle, but maybe I'd better wait until October, unless I can skim the books and write an app super fast.

And I think I've rambled long enough now!